2014 has been a very tough year, in fact, the most mentally challenging year in my life.

The other side of the Pacific Ocean, my father is waiting for me to go home, not for any particular good reason, but for me to prepare his funeral. He is a dying cancer patient.

All this struck me very hard, because last time I heard about death in my family was my great-grandpa (I think...). In addition, all my medical knowledge are accumulated because of his illness, my path of becoming an entrepreneur was defined by his cancer journey, and all friends who worked closely with me on the startup project were all brought in because of our father's cancer.

I fucking hate to admit that we are defeated by cancer.

That was the harsh feeling in 2014. But looking back, with the blood record I kept track of my father's, I realized that some of his indexes were magically reverted several times, even doctors had all said there was no hope. I finally understood his choice, it must be really difficult for him to make such a decision and to live, and he has been very strong and did his best.

Although as sad as I would be in 2 days when I see him, I decided to continue doing what can potentially save more lives, and finally made a list of my 2015 resolutions:

1. Spend at least 1 hour with friends every week. - since whenever, I had become a workaholic. A lot of my friends have already lost contact (aka I am not as important to them), and I need to start making up for it, because 2014 has proved to me that, those friends who I ignored are friends who are always there for me.

2. Pole dancing - I need more physical & fun challenges in life to keep my brain functions. p.s. I finished my last 2014 resolution: Kick boxing!

3. Build a systematic platform to help patients anyway I can - regardless of what happen to my dad at the end, I will build a platform such that patients and family will not make the same mistake as we did. 2015 the startup will be official.

4. Travel once (at least!) for volunteer work - I almost forgot where I came from, doing so will remind me what kindness can save others and ourselves.

5. With the little time left, try to make myself & people around me happy, or do something for them. - I was bullied a lot at school, so it was not really "my thing" to make people around me happy. However, being who I already am today, I should make a change, to forgive and to share.

6. (Secret) - we will know by August.

Hope 2015 will have less war and less pain. Best wishes for everyone!